Saturday, February 20, 2010

执迷不悟

2010年2月20日的晚间九时三十分,放在桌上的手机突然响起一首我不熟悉的铃声。拿起手机一看,竟然是你!当时我的心情是多么的兴奋!然后,我说了声:“哈罗”,对方传来一把惊奇的声音,然后通话就酱挂了!我的也瞬间跌落了谷底。。。原来你并不曾想过要真正的祝福我!更令我心痛的是,你根本没想过为你刚才所做的错而给我一个解释!你就当没一回事般不了了之!
是的,无可否认,我真的很傻!我以为,在我对你付出了这么多的后,你也会回以我相当的回报。原来我错了!!虽然我一直告诉自己不要为你而伤心了,但以上你那无意的举动,还是会令我觉得很失望,很失落。。。
我有股冲动想报复,但你会因为我而情绪起伏不定吗?我自认我没那个本事,因为在你里,我根本占不了位置,就连一个角落都没我的份!我必须狠下心,告诉自己别再想念你了,也别再对你做出无谓的付出,因为,我得到的,只是你的冷漠!我在里告诉自己:你的生日,我必须等到last minute才传封简讯给你。但,我真的能做到吗?我真的可以对你狠下吗?我恨自己的,因为只要你的一个问候,就足以融化你在我里的那把!我根本狠不下做出伤害你或是令你不愉快的事!后来,看了你在FB的留言,才惊觉,也许,你只是想mc我,告诉我你已经抵达KL了,是我太快接电话了!但回一想:就算是酱,既然我都已经接了你的电话,为何你就不能跟我谈一谈呢??
近来朋友们在爱情都碰了焦,这让我起了莫名的担心,我不希望我和你之间也会有这么不好的下场!但仔细回想:当命运来临的时候,我们不得不认命!是的,命运里早已注定你我之间,不能存在爱情!因为,我们来自不同的宗教,我们来自不同的地方,还有,我们来自同一个性别!
早已经叫自己别再对你执迷不悟了,好在我也趁离开你之际收拾了对你的眷恋!但,失望的感觉总是难免的,就算我已及时对你抽了身,你始终是我曾经深爱的人!我只希望,有一天,我可以不再为你而感到伤心失望,而是对你麻木了!!

2010 Birthday

因为今年的生日坐落在新年假期,所以朋友们就只好趁她们还未回家前提早跟我庆祝生日。星期一(8/2/2010),早上我与一个友人一起去office交assignment. 在等待老师的同时,令一个友人打电话给我,叫我等下去meeting时穿美些,因为要去海边吃晚餐和拍照。可我已经没什么衣服在这儿了,所以就只穿一件黑色的Polo-T.开会开到一半,大约四点左右,令一个男友人竟然捧着一盒的蛋糕上来,原来她们是打算跟我提早庆祝生日!!竟然骗我叫我穿美美,她们则穿得酱随便,还好我没完全上当,哈!看照片去:

在此我要谢谢以上的朋友,在忙着赶assignment的当儿也没忘了跟我庆祝生日!很感动!!

第二天,也就是星期二晚上,在忙着model-E assignment的同时,懒惰的我趁机跟令一个男友人玩msn, 聊到了明晚一起出去吃,心想反正assignment都已经赶完了,也好!就趁机出去放松一下心情吧!!

星期三,上完课,已经是四点钟了,匆匆赶回房冲凉梳洗,七点就出门去咯!!这次去的是纳闽岛里靠近Utama Jaya的一间西式餐厅,我点了一份烤鸡排,而他则点了一份烤羊排。我的一份鸡排加一杯carrot juice总共花了RM20.80.



接着,便是甜点时刻了—麦当劳!!友人请我吃一杯的chocolate cornetto McFlurry, 超赞的!!因为我自己都舍不得买来吃。一杯酱小的雪糕就已经要RM5.90了,我已经可以吃一餐半了!!谢谢我的慷慨友人。。。哈!!
好了,现在轮到正日的时候了。原本真的很想出去吃个好料的(就算是快餐,我也甘愿。。。)。无奈平时可以和我一起花钱的朋友近来心情不好,而我又不敢打扰她,所以,我的生日餐(早餐+午餐+晚餐)就只能酱:

RM1的茄子+RM2的白饭+一罐猪肉丁+两粒自煮的水煮蛋

无论如何,虽然只是一个午餐都已经吃得我快吐了,现在不得不承认,本小姐是好命的人,不能吃罐头食品,每次一吃罐头食品就会有种要吐的感觉,真的顶不顺罐头食品里的那种铁罐味!!不过,也总好过一直吃面啦!!我已经连续吃了四天的面了,我的脸也都快要变成面条了。。。 =.=|||
最后,当然没忘了许愿:在这二十三岁的生日,希望我可以:
1)顺利地找到一份好公司(无论是实习或是永久的工作)当然在这紧急关头当然是先希望能够找到地方实习,
2)顺利毕业,可以拿到好成绩(1st class已经是不可能的事了,酱就maintain在2nd upper吧),
3)身体健康,不要再为过去和无法改变了的事实而流泪了,
4)顺利找到我人生中第一个另一半,
5)有机会,可以去我的dream country—England发展!!

Friday, February 19, 2010

2010 CNY Celebration

This Chinese New Year, as usual, I have to celebrate in Labuan due to the expensiveness of flight ticket.
The night before first day of CNY, I went to 126 Restaurant for the steamboat dinner with my two friends here, Mikki and Lulu. This steamboat is a set meal and it cost us RM20 per person (usually is RM18 per person). Let see the photo below:


After dinner, we went to the next station since the time is still early for us. The next station is – McDonald’s. We just ordered a cup of coke and shared within 3 peoples…haha~~ And, I had taken a photo with the most expensive and high class restaurant which situated in Labuan Airport:



The first day of CNY, 14 Feb (Sun), this is also a Valentine’s Day. In the afternoon, I went to Mikki’s house because she had cooked a lot of delicious food for us. I am here to say thousand of thanks to our chief – Mikki. Thanks for your treat!! It is very delicious and I appreciate it!!


At night, before that we had planned to go and eat a best meal – PIZZA HUT for the celebration, who knows suddenly there is no car available, so, at the end, my dinner had changed to –

I feel very pity on me as my CNY is celebrated with those foods above!!

Here is how I celebrate my CNY in year 2010. And, this is the consequences of studying in the very far university. But never mind, I had used to it. I had continuously not celebrated CNY for these 3 years since I enter University. And I hope, next year I can celebrate it with the more delicious food.